Friday, November 30, 2007
Criminal Minds - True Night
I don't know how many of you watch "Criminal Minds" but I started watching it a couple episodes ago. Why? I was waiting to see the episode that they filmed on my street. It aired yesterday night, but I missed the first half. As I was watching it now, I recognized the house where they filmed instantly. I looked in the background and lo and behold ... there was my car! If you didn't know where to look or what to look for, you'd miss it. And then, after Frank Muniz' character flips out in his apartment, the scene goes to the police department. As they're panning in, guess who's on one of the officer's desk? Tommy Lasorda! Not the actual Tommy, but the bobble head they gave away on his Bobble Head night. Cool huh?
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Tailspin
Warning! If you don't want to get depressed...
Don't
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What do you do when you ....
.... feel like your life has spun completely out of control and you have no clue how to pick up the pieces?
.... have been stuck in a slump so long you don't know how to get out?
.... should have grown up a long time ago but don't know how to now?
.... can't go forward, you can't go backwards, but you can't stay where you are?
.... are too embarrassed to talk about what you're going through?
.... not sure how you got where you are, but don't know how to get away from where you are?
.... don't know which way to go, which way is up, or which way is down?
.... want to throw your hands up in the air, bury your head in the sand, or just simply give up?
.... can barely put one foot in front of the other, get out of bed in the morning, or don't even know why you keep going on?
.... don't know any other way to express anything other than just an random blurb on the internet to people you don't really know or will ever meet because it's safer that way?
.... want to talk, don't know what to say or who to say it to?
.... need to know that you're more than you are, and really
.... feel like you're wasting your life on nothing?
.... want to change the direction your life is going but don't know how to start, which way to go, or even where to begin?
Lord (I Don't Know) - Newsboys
Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt
Don't worry .......... too much. It's late. Things always seem darker in the middle of the night. And then when the light comes ... it's not as dark.
Don't
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Read
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This
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Entry
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Spoiler
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Space
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Included
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What do you do when you ....
.... feel like your life has spun completely out of control and you have no clue how to pick up the pieces?
.... have been stuck in a slump so long you don't know how to get out?
.... should have grown up a long time ago but don't know how to now?
.... can't go forward, you can't go backwards, but you can't stay where you are?
.... are too embarrassed to talk about what you're going through?
.... not sure how you got where you are, but don't know how to get away from where you are?
.... don't know which way to go, which way is up, or which way is down?
.... want to throw your hands up in the air, bury your head in the sand, or just simply give up?
.... can barely put one foot in front of the other, get out of bed in the morning, or don't even know why you keep going on?
.... don't know any other way to express anything other than just an random blurb on the internet to people you don't really know or will ever meet because it's safer that way?
.... want to talk, don't know what to say or who to say it to?
.... need to know that you're more than you are, and really
.... feel like you're wasting your life on nothing?
.... want to change the direction your life is going but don't know how to start, which way to go, or even where to begin?
Lord (I Don't Know) - Newsboys
Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt
Don't worry .......... too much. It's late. Things always seem darker in the middle of the night. And then when the light comes ... it's not as dark.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Latest update ... as of four hours ago
Update on Chloe...........Headed back to the hospital!! :( 11-20-07
So we thought we had a day off today but the hospital just called and Chloe is in immediate need of a blood transfusion, her numbers have dropped to 240 and I am praying that we are not going to spend Thanksgiving in the hospital. Also, we have made plans (bought plane tickets) to go up to Portland for Christmas to be with our families and we are asking for prayer that it will all work out. We really need to be with family and our dear friends this holiday season. We thought we would wait until summer to see everyone when we move back but the closer the holidays get, the more we want to go "home" for Christmas. It's just not the same without family especially since David was deployed to Iraq last Christmas and it's been two years since we have been up to Washington to see his family for Christmas. Do I sound desperate? I am! We NEED to be "home" this year. Thank you for praying for the Lord's will in it all. The doctor agreed yesterday that it was a very good thing to go. There were some real concerns but he said they didn't outweigh the benefits of going for all of us- especially Chloe. It's all in the Lord's hands! We are trusting in Him as always.
Love,
Karla
We are home!!!!
So we thought we had a day off today but the hospital just called and Chloe is in immediate need of a blood transfusion, her numbers have dropped to 240 and I am praying that we are not going to spend Thanksgiving in the hospital. Also, we have made plans (bought plane tickets) to go up to Portland for Christmas to be with our families and we are asking for prayer that it will all work out. We really need to be with family and our dear friends this holiday season. We thought we would wait until summer to see everyone when we move back but the closer the holidays get, the more we want to go "home" for Christmas. It's just not the same without family especially since David was deployed to Iraq last Christmas and it's been two years since we have been up to Washington to see his family for Christmas. Do I sound desperate? I am! We NEED to be "home" this year. Thank you for praying for the Lord's will in it all. The doctor agreed yesterday that it was a very good thing to go. There were some real concerns but he said they didn't outweigh the benefits of going for all of us- especially Chloe. It's all in the Lord's hands! We are trusting in Him as always.
Love,
Karla
We are home!!!!
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| I wanted to post a praise report to let you all know that we are back home! Thank you so much for praying!!! So many of you emailed/beboed me back saying how you were going to pray right away and that Chloe had been on your hearts. Thank you for praying, we serve such a wonderful, awesome God and He is so good to us time and time again. Chloe needed two units of blood and right away started getting chills and got very flushed. The nurse caring for her grew concerned and got the doctor. Usually with chills an oncology patient is admitted right away for a minimum of three days and I knew that because some of the medications mask a fever but not chills. I was trying to fight back tears and so I just breathed a prayer and I knew that right at that moment many others were praying too. In a matter of minutes Chloe stopped shaking and all of her symptoms subsided. I knew the Lord was with us and with Chloe right at that moment and I knew she was touched by the mighty hand of God as only He can do. The doctor shook his head and said "Hmmm, she seems to be fine now". I can't count how many times that Chloe has left the doctor's scratching their heads, but we know and we are always quick to give God the glory. We are so very thankful to be back at home! We pray for all of those that are still at the hospital and are not going to have the luxury of being home for Thanksgiving this year. Glory be to God! Our love and thanks, The Diemer Family | |||
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Random stuff
My average readership jumped up this week. In fact, I had two record high days of twelve hits each. I think that's the most hits I've had ever. And I was starting to think no one read this anymore. Okay, so I still think that. But at least now I do know that people do stumble across this blog once in awhile. There were some posts that I really wanted some feedback on, but no comments so no feedback. It's interesting to know that I get a lot of referrals from google searches. Too bad I can't seem to use google search to find some old friends.
Update on Chloe
For those of you who are unable to see Karla's Bebo, here's the two most recent entries on her blog. I know Stacy put some updates on her blog once. I also have a picture of Chloe from Sunday.
And for those of you who are unfamiliar with this ... Chloe is a sweet little girl who was diagnosed with leukemia in May of this year. It's been a rollercoaster of a year for Chloe and her family. But God is faithful, and God is good (all the time). I'll try to post more updates for those of you unable to get onto Bebo. Let's all keep Chloe and her family in our prayers.
From Karla
She was able to start part two of her Standard Delayed Intensification Phase yesterday. We were at the CHOC Cancer Clinic for about ten hours getting multiple kinds of chemo and she also had another Lumbar Puncture. The LP had to be done two times because she fought the medication so much they had to give her five times the dose to put a child of her weight under in order to do the procedure again. Chloe is quite a fighter and such a brave girl in all that she faces daily. She has confidence that the Lord is right beside her and with His help faces most of her battles head on! Chloe will be in daily hospital treatment for the next 14 days and then will go into a two week "rest" period so that she can regain her numbers once again before starting her final phase Maintenance. It makes me cry to even type that, this has been such a struggle for her and us that I can't believe that we are almost to the last phase. Yes, the last phase does last for three years and some cases kids come out of remission during the final phase, but we are confident that Chloe will see this through. Anything is possible with the amount of prayer that is going up daily for Chloe. We are so thankful for that. I mean who EVER heard of numbers going from 738 all the way to 1892 in just 4 days?? It took her four weeks to get to 738! Prayer is the answer for that!! We are off to the hospital this morning but I wanted to get this update out as soon as I had a minute. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all the many, many prayers. Your prayers are obviously working! Praise the Lord for that! We are truly thankful for each one that has breathed a prayer for Chloe. It means everything to us. Thank you for carrying our burden with our family. I feel blessed to be connected to so many prayer warriors no matter what the "burden" is- you are ready. We are so blessed by your love, support and prayers.
With happy, happy hearts and thanksgiving,
The Diemers
So the last time Chloe went through this treatment (part one of two parts) during the first part of October...she went right in the hospital, it totally did her in. Her numbers bottomed out at zero for a week. This time she is still fighting and going strong into the second week! In fact, today is the last day of treatment of this phase and still without a hospital stay. We are just praising the Lord for all His mercy and healing. Chloe's numbers at the last update were 1892 then by the end of the first week they dropped to 1372 which is still awesome, so awesome that we were able to attend church on Sunday! By Tuesday the 13th they were 758 (still good for where she is at in treatment), Chloe wont get labs again until Monday but so far everything is looking wonderful and I feel so happy for Chloe that she made it through two weeks of very intense therapy without going to the hospital. Chloe was able to make it to the tea party on Monday and even go walk in the sand at our beach Monday evening to watch the sunset (it's still in the 70's to low 80's here). Today after school some wonderful friends are putting together a locks of love cut (Spare Some Hair) in honor of Chloe, she will be there with a mask on to watch and support all the girls and women that are donating their hair today. My sister Tami, David and I are still plugging away on our training for the LA Marathon, so far so good. Chloe is the team's honored teammate and if her numbers are high enough she will meet the team on the 8th of December for our first 10 mile training day! David has today off so he took Chloe to her appointment this morning to give me a break from the hospital this week. Chloe suggested that we give her a break and both go and leave her here instead..lol. She is in great spirits. I wanted to mention one more thing if I may.... I normally don't speak much about Ashley & Hannah but I just want to say that they have been the best sisters through all of this. I am proud of how patient, understanding, and helpful they have been.
We thank you for your continued prayers to make in to the next phase. This last phase of Maintenance will last for 2-3 years and will be much easier after the first three months of treatment. Chloe has a rest period for the next two weeks so that her numbers can get back up to 750 to start this final phase by Dec 3rd. We are trusting in the Lord and we know that everything is in His perfect timing. Chloe is in His hands. We appreciate your prayers and we feel them.
With much love and thanks,
Karla & Family
And for those of you who are unfamiliar with this ... Chloe is a sweet little girl who was diagnosed with leukemia in May of this year. It's been a rollercoaster of a year for Chloe and her family. But God is faithful, and God is good (all the time). I'll try to post more updates for those of you unable to get onto Bebo. Let's all keep Chloe and her family in our prayers.
From Karla
Update on Chloe 11-06-07
The latest on Chloe is that she did make her numbers on Friday!! Yahoo! Not only did she make the minimum 750 but she soared past that all the way to 1892!!! Wow!! We didn't get her numbers until Monday morning, if we had known that, we could have gone to church Sunday!!She was able to start part two of her Standard Delayed Intensification Phase yesterday. We were at the CHOC Cancer Clinic for about ten hours getting multiple kinds of chemo and she also had another Lumbar Puncture. The LP had to be done two times because she fought the medication so much they had to give her five times the dose to put a child of her weight under in order to do the procedure again. Chloe is quite a fighter and such a brave girl in all that she faces daily. She has confidence that the Lord is right beside her and with His help faces most of her battles head on! Chloe will be in daily hospital treatment for the next 14 days and then will go into a two week "rest" period so that she can regain her numbers once again before starting her final phase Maintenance. It makes me cry to even type that, this has been such a struggle for her and us that I can't believe that we are almost to the last phase. Yes, the last phase does last for three years and some cases kids come out of remission during the final phase, but we are confident that Chloe will see this through. Anything is possible with the amount of prayer that is going up daily for Chloe. We are so thankful for that. I mean who EVER heard of numbers going from 738 all the way to 1892 in just 4 days?? It took her four weeks to get to 738! Prayer is the answer for that!! We are off to the hospital this morning but I wanted to get this update out as soon as I had a minute. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all the many, many prayers. Your prayers are obviously working! Praise the Lord for that! We are truly thankful for each one that has breathed a prayer for Chloe. It means everything to us. Thank you for carrying our burden with our family. I feel blessed to be connected to so many prayer warriors no matter what the "burden" is- you are ready. We are so blessed by your love, support and prayers.
With happy, happy hearts and thanksgiving,
The Diemers
Update on Chloe 11-16-07
Hello Friends and Family,So the last time Chloe went through this treatment (part one of two parts) during the first part of October...she went right in the hospital, it totally did her in. Her numbers bottomed out at zero for a week. This time she is still fighting and going strong into the second week! In fact, today is the last day of treatment of this phase and still without a hospital stay. We are just praising the Lord for all His mercy and healing. Chloe's numbers at the last update were 1892 then by the end of the first week they dropped to 1372 which is still awesome, so awesome that we were able to attend church on Sunday! By Tuesday the 13th they were 758 (still good for where she is at in treatment), Chloe wont get labs again until Monday but so far everything is looking wonderful and I feel so happy for Chloe that she made it through two weeks of very intense therapy without going to the hospital. Chloe was able to make it to the tea party on Monday and even go walk in the sand at our beach Monday evening to watch the sunset (it's still in the 70's to low 80's here). Today after school some wonderful friends are putting together a locks of love cut (Spare Some Hair) in honor of Chloe, she will be there with a mask on to watch and support all the girls and women that are donating their hair today. My sister Tami, David and I are still plugging away on our training for the LA Marathon, so far so good. Chloe is the team's honored teammate and if her numbers are high enough she will meet the team on the 8th of December for our first 10 mile training day! David has today off so he took Chloe to her appointment this morning to give me a break from the hospital this week. Chloe suggested that we give her a break and both go and leave her here instead..lol. She is in great spirits. I wanted to mention one more thing if I may.... I normally don't speak much about Ashley & Hannah but I just want to say that they have been the best sisters through all of this. I am proud of how patient, understanding, and helpful they have been.
We thank you for your continued prayers to make in to the next phase. This last phase of Maintenance will last for 2-3 years and will be much easier after the first three months of treatment. Chloe has a rest period for the next two weeks so that her numbers can get back up to 750 to start this final phase by Dec 3rd. We are trusting in the Lord and we know that everything is in His perfect timing. Chloe is in His hands. We appreciate your prayers and we feel them.
With much love and thanks,
Karla & Family
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Book Wish List
We were at Barnes and Noble yesterday and I walked by the Sports section and a book caught my eye. According to Brandon, I just about cried (just like Angelina when she found these pair of shoes at Ross). I looked at several books that I liked. However, when I got home, I realized I don't remember what book it was that caught my eye! I was sleep deprived. In fact, I haven't had a sleep deprived weekend like this one in awhile. Friday night was a get-together at Nina's. Because I'm not "allowed" to sleep over, I got home around 3 AM. I got on my computer because Nina wanted me to upload some things onto her *new* Ipod. Turns out my Itunes was outdated and when I updated it, my Quicktime was outdated so I had to update that too. I woke up around 10:30 (thanks to my sister) after getting to bed around 5:30. Had a long full day/ LOL we played Taboo (boys vs girls, it was five vs two at first). Nina and I (and Gail later on) beat Daniel-Brandon-Harold-Kevin. One of my words was "bond" and I got off on the wrong track. So I then said, "he played for the giants, Barry ..." and Nina got it. Later I got the word "stock" and I did the same thing. "Barry ... "then she said "bonds" and then I said "what's another word for bonds". I got the word "out" but I said "you need three of these to get out of an inning" and I meant to say "end an inning." I should've just said "three strikes and you're..." Anyway, got home and went to bed around 1/1:30 to get up at 6:30 for a staff meeting. I went to Starbucks and it took me three tries to get my order out of my mouth correctly. Then at the staff meeting, we had to write something and I could barely write anything legible. In fact, I'm not even sure half the stuff discussed or half the things I said. After the staff meeting, I went to Sunday school and church, then got lunch and went home for a bit. Before going to work, I went to Starbucks again. I went to the one by the church because it's closer and easier to get to. But there were about nine people in line and I didn't have time for that. So I drove to the new one on Glendale Blvd and there was hardly anyone there. I think I found a new Starbucks to start going to. Anyway, after work, I went back to Barnes and Noble to find that book. I put a bunch of book titles in my phone to look up later. I also found "Haunted Baseball"! I've been wanting this book since I found out about it. So, I just spent the last hour, hour and half, searching Amazon for those baseball books and I found more while I was at it. Here's my finished list.
- Sports Illustrated: The Baseball Book by Editors of Sports Illustrated
- The 2006 ESPN Baseball Encyclopedia (Espn... by Peter Gammons
- Obsessed with...Baseball: Test Your Knowledge of the America's Pastime (Obsessed With...) by The Baseball Guys
- Game of My Life Dodgers (Game of My Life) by Mark Langill
- Through a Blue Lens: The Brooklyn Dodgers Photographs of Barney Stein, 1937-1957
by Dennis D'Agostino (Author), et al. - Joy in Mudville - The Big Book of Baseball Humor by Dick Schaap and Mort Gerberg
- Tales from the Dugout : The Greatest True Baseball Stories Ever Told by Mike Shannon
- Illustrated History Of The Dodgers by Richard Whittingham
- The Dodgers Encyclopedia by William McNeil (Author)
- The Dodgers: 120 Years of Dodgers Baseball by Glenn Stout
- The Ultimate Baseball Quiz Book: (Third Revised Edition) (Baseball Quiz Book) by Dom Forker
- The Big Book of Baseball Brainteasers by Dom Forker, Robert Obojski, and Wayne Stewart (Hardcover -
- Tales from the Dodger Dugout by Tommy Davis and Paul Gutierrez
- Carl Erskine's Tales from the Dodgers Dugout: Extra Innings by Carl Erskine (Author), Vin Scully (Foreword)
- Rick Monday's Tales from the Dodger Dugout (Tales) by Rick Monday, Ken Gurnick, and Tommy Lasorda
- More Tales from the Dugout by Mike Shannon
- The ESPN Baseball Encyclopedia, Fourth Edition (Espn Baseball Encyclopedia) by Peter Gammons
- Brooklyn Remembered: The 1955 Days of the Dodgers by Maury Allen and Bob Costas
- 1001 Baseball Questions Your Friends Can't... by Dom Forker
- The Best Book of Baseball Facts and Stats... by Luke Friend
- The Major League Baseball Book of Fabulous Facts and Awesome Trivia: From the Legendary to the Obscure, 500 Baseball Questions Covering All the Numbers, the Moments, the Records, Even the Nicknames by Ken Shouler (Author)
- Dodgers Essential: Everything You Need to Know to Be a Real Fan! (Essential)
by Steven Travers (Author) - Few And Chosen: Defining Dodger Greatness Across the Eras (Few and Chosen) by Duke Snider (Author), et al.
- Tales from the Diamondback Dugout: A Collection of the Greatest Arizona Diamondback Stories Ever Told by Bob Page
- Tales From the Ballpark : More of the Greatest True Baseball Stories Ever Told by Mike Shannon
- True Blue: The Dramatic History of the Los Angeles Dodgers, Told by the Men Who Lived It by Steve Delsohn
- Baseball Bafflers : Quizzes, Trivia, and Other Ballpark Challenges by Fastball Makov (Editor)
- Big League Trivia: Facts, Figures, Oddities, and Coincidences from our National Pastime by Madison McEntire (Author)
- The Baseball Almanac: Big Bodacious Book of Baseball by Dan Schlossberg (Author), et al.
- Baseball Bafflers 2: The Second Inning by Slammin Sam Weiser (Editor)
- Ninety Feet from Fame: Close Calls with Baseball Immortality by Michael Robbins
- Baseball Eccentrics: The Most Entertaining, Outrageous, and Unforgettable Characters in the Game by Bill Lee and Jim Prime
- Baseball's Most Wanted II: The Top 10 Book of More Bad Hops, Screwball Players, and Other Oddities (Most Wanted) by Floyd Conner
- Luckiest Man: The Life and Death of Lou Gehrig by Jonathan Eig (Hardcover -
- Rob Neyer's Big Book of Baseball Blunders: A Complete Guide to the Worst Decisions and Stupidest Moments in Baseball History by Rob Neyer
- The Hardball Times Baseball Annual 2007 (H... by Brian Borawski
Sunday, November 04, 2007
I miss my friend
My internet has been funky for the last couple of days. Remember a couple entries ago about friends who don’t keep in touch? Okay, it’s been a long time ago. (Seen June 10, 2007 - Don't know what to say)
Anyway, I went to an event last week and another one this week that brought up a lot of old feelings and memories. And on top of those, I was looking through old e-mails and journal entries. The first event I went to was a marching band competition. It brought back a lot of memories from my three years of marching band. Then there was running into the current music teacher at my high school. I did end up going to the home coming game after all. That also brought back memories of all those long, boring football games that I had to sit through during those three years of marching band. But, this isn’t the first football game I’ve gone to since I graduated. I went to Homecoming two years after I graduated. I think. And I wanted to leave because of all the emotions I was feeling at the time. This time around, it was easier for me to be at the game. And this time around, I got to leave when I wanted to. Which was during the third quarter. But, I had a better experience this time around, too.
What was the point I was trying to get to?
I miss my friend. I miss this friend a lot.
What makes me more angry and upset is, this friend has moved again. I haven’t heard from this friend in a long time and I’m not even sure if the e-mail address that I do have is current. It was a work address and since it’s no longer where this friend works, it probably won’t work. Right?
For my graduation, this friend made a power point presentation for me. And that meant so much more to me than any card Hallmark could put out. But looking back on those e-mails and those words … how much did this friend really mean? Here we are years later, and I do have to wonder. If our paths were to cross, would this friend remember me? Could this friend remember me? It’s been a couple years. And I know that with all the people this friend comes into contact with, I don’t really expect this friend to remember me. After all, I run into people all the time who I do remember but they don’t remember me. Why should it be different with this friend?
And why am I putting this on my blog? I don’t know. I guess I just had to share it with someone. Since there isn’t anyone in my life I feel that I can share this with, I might as well share it with anyone willing to read my blog. I know this post jumps around a lot and probably doesn’t make much sense. Then again, I don’t make sense, this blog doesn’t make sense, so I guess together … we make sense (anyone know what movie that’s from? Okay, so it’s not verbatim).
Here’s two of the e-mails I found. The first one was sent to me just days after 9-11. The second one was the last question of an internet quiz/survey. You know, those things that have way too many questions but we sit through them and answer them anyway. The last question asked the reader, “what do you think of me.” And that was his response.
As we go through life, we often forget to say thanks,... we take things and people for granted, and often no one thinks anything of it. I gotta say right now that I'm grateful that God placed you in my life, I hope that we can maintain a friendship of some sort long after you graduate. I find that on some days you end up being a balancing force, and on others you remind me of my moral & spiritual compass. I know that if tuesday hadn't been unique, these words would never have seen light,... yet I feel that it is right that they now are here.
thanks again,
Love in christ,
what do I think of you? I think the world of you,.... you embody some of the finest qualities that i desire in friends etc. I have even stated that on occasion you have been my moral compass! i am grateful that god placed you in my life
From the power point presentation
Things I like about you …
*You live the example of Christ
*You always speak & act with honor
*You have given so much to me
* You have no idea how beautiful you are
Hope …
*Your future is bright
*You never forget me
*You get everything you desire
*Love finds you, and he knows just how precious you truly are
You are the best!
I will really miss not being able to see you every da
Anyway, I went to an event last week and another one this week that brought up a lot of old feelings and memories. And on top of those, I was looking through old e-mails and journal entries. The first event I went to was a marching band competition. It brought back a lot of memories from my three years of marching band. Then there was running into the current music teacher at my high school. I did end up going to the home coming game after all. That also brought back memories of all those long, boring football games that I had to sit through during those three years of marching band. But, this isn’t the first football game I’ve gone to since I graduated. I went to Homecoming two years after I graduated. I think. And I wanted to leave because of all the emotions I was feeling at the time. This time around, it was easier for me to be at the game. And this time around, I got to leave when I wanted to. Which was during the third quarter. But, I had a better experience this time around, too.
What was the point I was trying to get to?
I miss my friend. I miss this friend a lot.
What makes me more angry and upset is, this friend has moved again. I haven’t heard from this friend in a long time and I’m not even sure if the e-mail address that I do have is current. It was a work address and since it’s no longer where this friend works, it probably won’t work. Right?
For my graduation, this friend made a power point presentation for me. And that meant so much more to me than any card Hallmark could put out. But looking back on those e-mails and those words … how much did this friend really mean? Here we are years later, and I do have to wonder. If our paths were to cross, would this friend remember me? Could this friend remember me? It’s been a couple years. And I know that with all the people this friend comes into contact with, I don’t really expect this friend to remember me. After all, I run into people all the time who I do remember but they don’t remember me. Why should it be different with this friend?
And why am I putting this on my blog? I don’t know. I guess I just had to share it with someone. Since there isn’t anyone in my life I feel that I can share this with, I might as well share it with anyone willing to read my blog. I know this post jumps around a lot and probably doesn’t make much sense. Then again, I don’t make sense, this blog doesn’t make sense, so I guess together … we make sense (anyone know what movie that’s from? Okay, so it’s not verbatim).
Here’s two of the e-mails I found. The first one was sent to me just days after 9-11. The second one was the last question of an internet quiz/survey. You know, those things that have way too many questions but we sit through them and answer them anyway. The last question asked the reader, “what do you think of me.” And that was his response.
As we go through life, we often forget to say thanks,... we take things and people for granted, and often no one thinks anything of it. I gotta say right now that I'm grateful that God placed you in my life, I hope that we can maintain a friendship of some sort long after you graduate. I find that on some days you end up being a balancing force, and on others you remind me of my moral & spiritual compass. I know that if tuesday hadn't been unique, these words would never have seen light,... yet I feel that it is right that they now are here.
thanks again,
Love in christ,
what do I think of you? I think the world of you,.... you embody some of the finest qualities that i desire in friends etc. I have even stated that on occasion you have been my moral compass! i am grateful that god placed you in my life
From the power point presentation
Things I like about you …
*You live the example of Christ
*You always speak & act with honor
*You have given so much to me
* You have no idea how beautiful you are
Hope …
*Your future is bright
*You never forget me
*You get everything you desire
*Love finds you, and he knows just how precious you truly are
You are the best!
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Saturday, November 03, 2007
I don't know
I just don't know any more. It's been two years. Exactly two years since i last heard from this friend. While writing in my journal i used my phone to look up when was the last time i heard from this friend. The last e.mail i received was two years ago. But apparently someone else i know may have my friend's current e.mail address. Which makes me wonder. If this friend could keep in touch with my other class mate why not me? And more than anything i wish i had more than a blog to use to share how i am feeling. I wish i had something other than a journal to express everything i feel in. Because guess what? Even though i can write down how i feel it's not enough. I need someone else to share this with. Someone who won't make this all about them. Someone who won't make me feel like they're better than i am or i'm not as good or good enough. Because i want to be able to share what i'm feeling without it turning into something that's all bout them. I miss having a friend who i could talk to and could encourage me
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Talk about timing
For a long time now, I've been wondering what happened to the marching band at my high school. After I graduated, my band director stuck around for two more years before moving on. If what I found online is correct, he has moved on from where he was after he left Marshall. Anyway, since he left in 2004, Marshall (my high school) wasn't able to hire another band director till 2006. During those two years, instruments were stolen, everything was put into storage, and the music program was gone. Alumni like me wondered what was going on and if there was a band anymore.
Well, I don't have to wonder anymore.
Tonight, I was supposed to take my brother to Marshall at seven. I didn't get home till eight. He said he didn't want to go anymore. A few minutes later, he changed his mind. I am so glad that he did. Talk about timing. When I dropped off my brother, I noticed the band room was open and there were some guys leaving. To be honest, the person who I guess was the music teacher didn't look old enough to be one (to me anyway). I thought he was another student. So, I parked and walked up to the band room. I was nervous about approaching them. I didn't know what to say. I watched the teacher lock up the room and check to make sure they were locked. That reminded me of all the times Juan, Parker, and I locked up the band room at the end of the day. As they talked, I thought about how was I going to approach them.
Finally, I walked up to them and said, "I know this may seem like a stupid question, but does Marshall still have a band?" We talked for about half an hour. Marshall did not have a marching band, but they did have a pep band. The teacher (James) explained what happened after Parker left. He asked me questions about what band was like when I was in it. I answered them as best as I could. It has been five years. I told him I graduated in 02. He said he graduated in 01. No wonder I thought he looked like he could be one of the kids. He's pretty young himself. I'm curious to see where James is going to go with the band. He said he didn't want to do a full marching band with the competitions and everything. He wanted to the focus to be on the music, not ... I guess not the performing part.
I have dropped off and picked up my brother at Marshall several times this year. And this is the first time I have ever seen anyone come out of the band room. Talk about perfect timing! Well, timing actually isn't always perfect. Because about fifteen minutes after I left Marshall, my brother called me. I had to go back and get him. When I got back to Marshall, I waited in the car for him and his friend for awhile. I didn't mind. The funny part was, I was going through an old phone bill looking for a phone number (since I lost several when my phone was stolen). While I was looking through it, I felt my car shake and heard something hit the front of my car. Some of Billy's friends had been tossing a football around. I had thought about backing my car up so they wouldn't hit me, but I didn't. I should have. Because one of the guys didn't catch the ball and it did hit my car. I looked up and they were laughing and looking guilty. Billy came over and I rolled my window down. His friends told him to tell me that they were sorry. Then the two guys came over and apologized too. It was quite funny actually.
One more thing ... to echo my blog entry from Saturday... boy am I glad I'm not going to high school now with band directors like James and Joe (Joe is the band director from Arroyo).
Well, I don't have to wonder anymore.
Tonight, I was supposed to take my brother to Marshall at seven. I didn't get home till eight. He said he didn't want to go anymore. A few minutes later, he changed his mind. I am so glad that he did. Talk about timing. When I dropped off my brother, I noticed the band room was open and there were some guys leaving. To be honest, the person who I guess was the music teacher didn't look old enough to be one (to me anyway). I thought he was another student. So, I parked and walked up to the band room. I was nervous about approaching them. I didn't know what to say. I watched the teacher lock up the room and check to make sure they were locked. That reminded me of all the times Juan, Parker, and I locked up the band room at the end of the day. As they talked, I thought about how was I going to approach them.
Finally, I walked up to them and said, "I know this may seem like a stupid question, but does Marshall still have a band?" We talked for about half an hour. Marshall did not have a marching band, but they did have a pep band. The teacher (James) explained what happened after Parker left. He asked me questions about what band was like when I was in it. I answered them as best as I could. It has been five years. I told him I graduated in 02. He said he graduated in 01. No wonder I thought he looked like he could be one of the kids. He's pretty young himself. I'm curious to see where James is going to go with the band. He said he didn't want to do a full marching band with the competitions and everything. He wanted to the focus to be on the music, not ... I guess not the performing part.
I have dropped off and picked up my brother at Marshall several times this year. And this is the first time I have ever seen anyone come out of the band room. Talk about perfect timing! Well, timing actually isn't always perfect. Because about fifteen minutes after I left Marshall, my brother called me. I had to go back and get him. When I got back to Marshall, I waited in the car for him and his friend for awhile. I didn't mind. The funny part was, I was going through an old phone bill looking for a phone number (since I lost several when my phone was stolen). While I was looking through it, I felt my car shake and heard something hit the front of my car. Some of Billy's friends had been tossing a football around. I had thought about backing my car up so they wouldn't hit me, but I didn't. I should have. Because one of the guys didn't catch the ball and it did hit my car. I looked up and they were laughing and looking guilty. Billy came over and I rolled my window down. His friends told him to tell me that they were sorry. Then the two guys came over and apologized too. It was quite funny actually.
One more thing ... to echo my blog entry from Saturday... boy am I glad I'm not going to high school now with band directors like James and Joe (Joe is the band director from Arroyo).
Happy Halloween
And boy were the crazies out today. It's been crazy people at work week or something. For example, today, one lady came in asking about a package she just ordered. Literally. She must've just placed the order on Saturday and they told her it wouldn't arrive in the store till maybe Saturday. And she comes in today to see if it already arrived. Then she asks about another order that must not have gone through. The entire time my boss is trying to take care of this and order it for her, she is muttering about not coming to this store anymore because she can't seem to get helped right. Now, this other lady was at the register when I came back from my break. Tracy (my former store manager who is now one of the assistant managers) was dealing with her. My store manager already tried to deal with her, but handed her off to Tracy. The customer was returning several items. But she wanted the return in cash. However, she used a merchandise credit to pay for part of it. So, she could only receiver a certain amount in cash and another amount in store credit. The customer refused to take the store credit. She wanted it all in cash. However, we can't do that. My store manager had an electrician waiting and he was just watching the entire thing. Tracy explained the policy to the customer SEVERAL times. It must have taken at least fifteen to twenty minutes before the customer took her merchandise back and left the store.
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